Tuesday, August 23, 2005



Well, things ended in one way and started in another
Learnt so much throughout these troubled times, handling studies and being asked by my committee to step down as the president

Seriously i expected that coming and espicially after the remarks made from the start
Congrats you suceeded, everyone sees me as a failure as a leader
and i respect the committee decision for me to step down

At that point in time, i just wanted to quit straight. Afterall how many people can tolerate being in a team where you are not being appreciated , lots of unrest and internal conflicts happening
But the committee made another decision for me to stay on

They feel that i should still be in the committee and seriously i did not want to stay on
A couple of reasons reason
: I already lost my Cause
: Since everyone find it hard to work with me then why work with me?
: So much question shot at me regading my actions and i did not have all the answers
: No one reconginzed my effort to make time out of my schedule for INTSC matters
: People dared talked about my commitment level

But like i used to motivate one of my main committee ,Qi sheng, he used it on me too
That I must be answerable to all who have voted for me regardless be it cause of popularity or ability.

I stay on soley for a reason. For the students of INT school

Not the committee decision, not the request by mr joshua liew for me to stay
Not for anything else

After stepping down, i found it so hard to hide my emotions
I just can't believe things would be so drastic till that extent where most of the committe member voted for me to be off my post
Was i really such a bad leader?

Afterall, i been having a bad time keeping up with my school work
(project project PROJECTS) & FYP, handling club affair and my personal life. If people have problem with my working style then i got nothing to say but only that they will be worser people out there. And some people seriously failed in their position
, i shall not name names but they know who they are.

Respect is not earned in a day and since i made people lose their respect for me, i guess i better earn it back and for other whom i have lost all my respect in. Please EARN them back

Anyway, thanks to a certain someone, that someone that i must really THANKS.
I saw just how many person were there for me, P Squad , Alvin neo , Delong , Angel , Yikying, Kazumi, Eileen , Janice and the list just go and on and on

After seeing what some of them wrote on the INTSC signature board, i just felt so touched
12 may not believe in me but many other did and supported me
It made me realise just how strongly they felt for me

All the more i should not let them down and just step down and resign
But one thing i dare say to my committee member is that i have no fear of having no place to go
And if i do resign , that is a responsibility they have to answer for so dun push me to that extent cause i promise things wun be pretty

No one is indispensable including myself

But I still believe in doing my new job well so just trust me on that.
Polictis can take you nowhere so if that is your game
then maybe i can only say " Count me OUT of it"

Why make yourself so tired over type of matter?
If that is the way things are going to remain in the club then i can safely say that i wun play any part in it and EVERYONE in the club will suffer

Everyone is already tired , dun make and complicate things further
If everyone is still insistent that it is my fault then let it be. I have my side of the story as well
Since someone can relate so well with everyone else in the committee, that someone is good but i can relate more with people outside my committee in which i feel will make me different from you
You can understand & relate to 14 person at the most , i can understand so much more.
And most importantly , i have fun while doing things
Do you?