Saturday, August 07, 2004



Mac rox and look at the nice ambience =) 

Me at MAc after cycling =x Dinner TIME 

WTf all my post is gone....arararra.....
Suan le.. see my pic ba.....

Went for production crew thingy
had fun =) knew more friend and my group damn ON coolz =x
Hope they learn more from this CCa =)

Met up wif wei shan , miao juan , karen , wayne , joy , grace , estelle , karen yong , justin , zen , robin , thiam heng(working at the bicycle shop)
later zen friend came and they went nite riding.
Had MAc dinner wif karen and justin ( 3 person ate 4person share $20.90 4EVM+20 piece nuggets)
Talk wif my mommy grace =x

went home tired and all but i had a great day
i love u guys =) Always there for me , always there for me making me a somebody when i am in fact nobody to anybody
THANKS =)
je'taime
watshiwa aisheiterui
Wo ai ni
i love u

Friday, August 06, 2004



Everything started this morning when i woke up with my whole body aching(Ytd went GYm wif ZEn >.< i am so weak =( MUst train more =) GYM GYM muscle muscles)

Went on my msn from then till now cause some1 put my aeroplace Chatted with friends(both old and new) Update myself on their newest happening,publicise my blog,chatted about problem, LOve stuffs and all.. Played some GAmes(CO)for like 20minutes. Listen to songs all e while..... Wrote testi for some of my friends, "priated" qilixiang to friends oops =x REcommand u to buy the albumb =x (let u listen what u be hearing =x i view this as browsing =) but i still get the albumb.Die hard JAy fan

My cousin was love-sicked and sick till realli sick >.<(shall not elborate on it )
SAW something that woke me up from the fairytale i was living in
LOVE HURTS and it does Cause LOVE SUXs

She called to clarify something.Well i am glad it is all cleared up but from the way and manner of which she spoke.... i find it rather hard to believe... thanks for having the courage to talk about it =) but wait , there a twist ..... i seen ur true colours. Maybe i was blind in the first place.Anyway just hope she can get the happiness she deserve.

i could blog all about what she is 2 me but well, she still wann remain a friend. Hope her guy can give her what she wants =)

About gal, excuses are ur cup of teas yeah? Go get a life!!!!
Espicially to her (THANKS =) i learn a lesson from this =) Thanks for enlighting me)

Be missing the cycling and blading trip at east coast wif my poly peeps sad =( SATURDAY
Be missing the Firework display with wendy and gang sad =( SUNDAY

Today i had 2 call so many people. My production crew group , friends to confirm some thing. Heard so many excuses from them. If u have interest in a thing, u will go no matter what but if u dun have interest then why bother joining?For those who can't make it due 2 holidays or some commitment , just 2 bad that there will only be 1 such training 2morrow the meeting and training for production crew.

Sunday be going in to Malaysia for my cousin wedding (omg i miss church for the 2nd straight week >.< Must go there next week !!!!)

Guess for everything there will be always something more important to replace it

DOES that apply for my heart as well? will there be some1 more important to replace that emptyness in my heart? Thinking of this, pondering over it

* special thanks to Danielle for helping me wif the Taggy board =x *

Thursday, August 05, 2004



Just finish my paper today, think i fare quite lousy for it. HAiz.... i know i fail at least 2 of my 4 subject already.... why must things turn out like this?

Maybe i just had 2 many thing at mind and could not concentrate well enough..... well look like i have 2 work doubly hard for all my assignment as well.... to pass my CA cause i still wann remain in sch graduate with my diploma and further my studies!!!!

I want my life in future to be a life i can look forward to and by looking at the shape of things now, it seem shallow and bleak ... haiz... am i really that unless and after my poly just ..... start to work earning a 1-2k+ a month?
i am not sastified
i can be the best and i know that myself cause well, that is ur preception
IF u think u can succeed , ur mentality will be that u WANT to suceed and failure is not just another option, thus u have an edge over other who do thing for the sake of doing things

blah blah blah
Talk is cheap but well action speaks louder then word
I must practise what i believe in
seek out my direction in life and allow myself to grow as i walk my ways through every step and part of my life

I want it !!! i desire it!!!! knowledge!!!
It is my destiny

Planning what my road ahead in life
what will i be in 10 years time?
Have u planned?
Although the future hold much more then u can ever dream of
what lies ahead in unforseen

Hopefully, i can adheard to my goals in life
my ambition my love my everything

Look forward to NDP
Singapore , my country , my pride , my everything =)
Singaporean rox and like what Xiaxue say ...
"I hate everyone Singaporean who hates Singapore"

Xiaxue ROX=)

XIAXUE

If u chose to let go then, then why are u holding on now?
If deception were deceptions then why should I trust again?
If one day we could spend a day in silence have u departed or are we no longer even friends?
If one day we could say “I love you” millions of time, would it have been a little too late?
If we could turn back time, would this mistake be the 1 we would want to alter? Or that or that or that?
If our paths intersect again, would we even be able to say “hi”?
If ……

ever wonder of all these question?

Wednesday, August 04, 2004



Just ME 

Zendy's workplace (Hp , Mp3 player , packet of OREOs , stationary ...TAMAGochi? WTf haha COOL =) MAy ur zendy stay happy with u =) There even a marking on the table which reads jia you = x Kampatei ) 

Justin's workplace (Clean and conducive but ignore the OEROS he is getting his hand on ---- I GIVE everyone 1 packet of OREOS =x) 

robin's sleepPlace oops o mean Workplace 

Wei shan's workplace (Notice the plastic bag full of tissue? She having a flu .... Cute tissue holder and NIce FAT wallet(bet a lot of $$ inside =x) Dun siao siao she study damn hard 

Karen's Workplace (Damn messy 1 sia =x but she offered me pocky so she's fine whahah LAme) 

Wayne "study"place (Notice his hand... covering the matric card picture whahahah =x) 

Joy's study place (so many electronic devices - 1 high-tech gal =x) 

Miao juan workplace (Note the CUTE dog) 

ARARRAR , i fail 1 paper at least already and it is OPSY the only subject i realli had no confidence in. Anyway, just glad that it is 10-15% for this sem term test. Hopefully with the help of assignment, i can pass all my subjects. Anyway, duno why these few day cannot concentrate well. I must focus .....is my DESTINY Went to have lunch 2gether as usual (ZEn , MOMmy grace , Wei shan , sheilia , justin , robin , thiam heng , steven & me). i went home after that take some things then headed back to library to study with justin , wei shan , zen , and engine friend (JOy , miao juan , karen , wayne) Took some fantastic picture =) and here they are =) After that went for dinner and arrive home (HAVE 2 study =( Come on YOU can do IT i know YOu Can ) ciao have 2 hit the books and get a Good grade for this subject nO MORE FAILURE I HATE FAILURES

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

No blogging 2day. Too many problems that are non-existantant =) Love each other so LOve = o Time wait for no man/women THiking about time .... here a Nice story =) A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door. SON: "Daddy, may I ask you a question?" DAD: "Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man. SON: "Daddy, how much do you make an hour?" DAD: "That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily. SON: "I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?" DAD: "If you must know, I make $20 an hour." Oh", the little boy replied, with his head down. Looking up, he said, "Daddy, may I please borrow $10?" The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behavior." The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door. The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. "How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?" After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $10 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door. "Are you asleep, son?" He asked. "No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy. "I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier," said the man. "It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $10 you asked for." The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you daddy!" he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man, seeing that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, then looked up at his father. "Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled. "Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied. "Daddy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you." So what is the moral of the story? THE MORAL OF THIS STORY It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family . An unwise investment indeed SO Do wat u must and dun regret cause TIME WAIT FOR NO MAN

Monday, August 02, 2004



It was the best mondays i had for a long time. started out cold and wet and studying in the "great" environment. Suppose to meet justin at 9am budden came late and reached at 9:20 but hey hey he was late as well!!!! about 10am? (haha budden dun blame him cause i know the weather make people tired)studied with jia en, zhi yong , dui zhang , felicia and their friend.

But i wasn't absorbing much and i felt i would have funk the test cause i really didn't put in that much effort into the test.Had 2 many problems to face, too much contridiction , too much and kinda sick of everything , the weather, exams , life. Cause although everyday was a different day, i felt i was living the same day through...... haiz.....
I need to discover to feeling i once had!!!! The feeling of living each day as if it was my last

Anyway it was 12:30 and time to face the music so i went for our test and guess what? OMG i could answer almost all the question cause there wasn't even a single code( WHAHAH java no need test codes WHAHHAHH i must be dreaming!!!!)It was all about concepts and understanding and explaining and luckily i was quite attentive during lectures and had seek help from friend who re-taught the concepts (Thank ya peeps =) Thank a million)

i could squeeze out a pass at least budden i had many mistakes.....should have read the last question once more (araraara i misinterpreted it).There were so many mixed emotion at the concourse, some were happy while other freaking Sad cause they didn't fare well. Well that is life. You do well in some and some u don't. You got to accept it!!!!

After finish toking about the exam, we proceed to the Mensa to have lunch then went to library to study. But there were no seats left so, korn,wendy,dennis,ailin went to the INTSC clubroom to study while we stay in the library slacking for a while with miaojuan and joy(wei shan friends)

After studying for a while, went to play bball (Just dennis,zen,robin me and korn,wendy and ailin) Enjoyed myself budden really 2 long never play (haiz... play so lousy den keep kenna shoot) Watever la.... most important is i had fun =)

After that went to buy ice cream with robin before going back in the library to study. Had a chat with robin while eating my yummy ice-cream. Went up, studied for around 40 minute-1 h and soon we were off for dinner. Went to dine at long john slivers. It so fun man.. whahaha .. keep laughing at the funny things said. Dennis = lizardman? ????? i Blur la KOrn.

Brr it is oily in here, there is a ah-pui in the atmosphere ???? Another LAME thingy by Ur truly KORN. Then think of wu xi xiao shou and i am pretty impressed by korn knick for such stuffs.
hhahahah yi tian duo long ji, se tiao ying xiaong chuang , siao ao jiang hu , etc etc (whahah thinking of beautiful ending for role-playing (wendy and dennis) It started with the moon den omg we were really lame (whahahahahahaha budden wo xi huan = O )

MOmmy grace finish her deposit and we all went home =x
Had a great day 2gether cause everything turned out fine =)
2morrow another day .... haiz..... just wish it finishs quickly.........

And yeah, Justin wrote me a testi =) haha Owe a lot of people Tesi =x oops
Will de la... wo hui de..... after term test k?
responsibily -- Had to call all my crew for training this saturday. While most could make it, some say they had commitment and stuff likdat ....haiz... maybe we informed them a bit late cause some of them were having holidayz (pro sia u all 1 week also wann holiday =x)
For the rest who came, hope they seriously can learn somethin =)
Looking forward 2 this saturday = x

haah and yeah maybe can secure a few vote 2 (ME and ALVIn neo same group ( 2 sch beaus =x) whahhaha kampatei desu!!!!)
Signing off, 2 tired ... haha resting now =)

* did saw her 2day but well, guess some things are not meant to be *
There are always better trees in the vast forest =x
Like huixin said : OPEN EYES BIG BIG and LOOK around Campus =)
hahhahaahhahha my eyes must be sharper sia =x
Target not in sight, my heart is troubled.......
Target in sight but yet i ponder =(
LOve .... wat a "Wonderful" feeling

Sunday, August 01, 2004




Last show , Last departure 

Vote for me @ Flannery

Fark my session expire and all i wrote from ytd was gone, it was so long Anyway, Saw her blog and her new picture, seem that she made a choice and i respect that Msg her something but no reply. well just hope she stay happy =) 2day went to Dake house 2 study. woke up late and missed lunch with them. Went over and meet them and justin came and pick me up and we walked 2ward Ray house (COndo sia) Then upload my pic to my trusty old justin =x and started studying. Had some breaks and fun and even discover Ray fetish for rubber duckies(WHAHAH i have PROVE and so does Kelvin and Justin and estelle can be our witness and ray's sister xiaoxuan as well!!!!! whahaahahah) So weird sia..... his sister also xiaoxuan..... so weird ..... espically when i said gd bye (haiz...this name always bring sorrow 2 me) departure is always the start of a new beginning. Took bus 67 home with justin and damn it was farking cold..... Alighted at Safra there and change a bus to go back Anyway, went home and started blogging...... study a while and now i off to bed meeting justin for study session 2morrow at 9am Hope tat i can get a B for this subject. GOD bless me (yeah i missed church cause i realli had 2 study ... sad =( .....but i be there next week and the week after the next and next and next) DSag and OOAd will not be offered next sem so i must clear them !!!! i must =x It was a heartache but well, life has many heartaches and falls and if i dun climb up from setbacks and falls then i may neber be able to continue..... Life a journey and i glad a part of it has been gone.... i will be strong & i would fly higher then an eagle For ya the wing beneath my wings

woke up at 11am and went to school to study my DSAG. In lab till 1pm (saw kim and her friend), den.... went to have my lunch at design sch. After that just didn't feel like going anywhere. Sat down at jupiter cafe (yeap it was close, i just borrow the benches) and started studying for a while.. den i noticed a board full of post cards. Written by students. Found it refreshing idea and soon penned a poem myself(it is a sad poem but hey ....life sad... ain' it?) Pasted it on the board and well proceed to walk around school. Saw serene chio and her friend and then studied 2gether for a while and left cause the whole school was being sprayed with insecticides. we left sch and i went to play arcade while they went to study at whitesand MAc. Arcade =+destress method+= At 5pm, i went back to do the show. It was the last show of the PAGES and haiz.. i saw her with daniel. Apart from that, the show was a success again and receive another standing alleviation at the end of the show. Every cue went perfectly and well, everything was spot on and there was also great singing by jonathan as well (His best i feel from the 3 days of real show).After the show, every1 was given a rose. Hamilin gave me his and i gave 1 rose to co-organiser. The other was meant for her....melissa....but i guess she never knows................... just wanted to go over and give it to her personally and say "still friends?" but well, daniel was always there beside her. There was just this 1 chance where i saw her reflection behind me. Thinking she would follow, i walked out of the Audi and sat on the steps. waited a while but still she didn't come. when she finally did, it was with daniel as well. i just didn't know what to say or do......................... i felt so hurt inside.... wo ye bu zhi dao ..... ze shi wei le se mo? The rose for her broke into 3, it still at the steps where i left it..... went in grab my bag and storm out there... wanted to just go home & sleep it through. went to my bus-stop and saw them again. Walk straight 2 the next bus-stop Walk home that day. Met my sec sch friend on the way and play bbal with them. Had mac 2gether and went home. She msged me and told me to be rational. I replied back and asked her was she rational in the way she was treating me? and to ask her to call me if she had anything 2 say she did but i fell asleep by then.... Maybe that is fate it was just another departure for a new beginning like i wrote in my poem