Friday, February 25, 2005



Been really a long time since i blogged..
a whole lot of things happen and i dun want to talk about it
Put all the sad things aside
Feeling emotionally and psychically drained as a result of my Poly Life
Projects feel piling up , Deadlines comes nearer and nearer
Super political... now i see many side of people i never seen before
Over the FYP

My FYp group mates are louis low and Zheng ming, both are good friends
but we r known as the ALL star DEATH team
Know why?
Cause we all average at IT skills... how to do the complicated FYP
+ it seems they dun seem to have e drive i have
maybe i have choosen the wrong group but i know i already made my choice
just keep believing

Quarrel with zheng ming over what to do for FYP
(2 great ideas)
but well, he so insistent on his OLE-like web portal
but i rather do on sentosa E-commerce web-site offering services and products
The quarrel just went on and on
No one want to give in
and in the end , the problem still dangling there
However , he say he dun mind doing what i suggested but i have to be the group leader and be responsible if the FYP @#$%^&-Up
then i felt pressurized because the pressure just too great k?
If i follow him , he would have friends to help him
but well, the world today, friend exist just as friends?
Think they always be there for you?
YOU WISHED

what if your friend is busy & cannot teach us?
Or we dun understand how to implement it?
Anyway, most of the things, we have not learnt so what are we going to do if something happen?
I dun want to spend another 12 weeks learning a newsoftware...
No bloody time understand?

i learnt that we only got ourselves to depend on
FYP is our responsibilty , not for anyone to depend on your friends...
It just doesn't work this way

Anyway i tried to seek a compromise but he dismissed the idea of doing up 2 proposals
and consulting the leacturer to see which idea was the best
why can't he be more open minded?
Just pushing the responsibilty around dun solve anything
Come to think of it, i dun mind taking the responsibility
Think i go type out my proposal ASAP

Putting that aside for the moment, the main crux of the problem lies wif me
i not been stepping up to the challenge, not achieving what is required of me
Just kept contemplating over How to solve the problem , Should i solve it and when to solve it and not focusing on what is important and on hand

Quote : LingLing : problem is not jus a problem, it is meant to be solve

Thanks for that gal ... Really learn something there
I must SOLVE all my problems and trust in GOD

recently, reformat my com...
Grhhhhhh having problem with my com.... still.. everything not installed yet
only the basic functions..
and i lost a whole load of things
Too much... espically of someone..
(oops sorry Yiling..can't blame me huh?)

Got to give a BIG thanks for Yiling for being such a darling =)
Thanks for cheering me up when i am down, making me feel better
showing your care and concern
XIE XIE NI!!!!
and for sending all da song..hope i can hear them soon(SPEAKER DOWN)
It was Fun la... having dinner with your friends (step , wes and GARy)
Toking about GAYS make me PUKE =x

Lastly, Thanks Yiling again for making this BLOG alive again