Wednesday, December 22, 2004



Tomorrow the day
Thursday
The day i become Someone's Maid
Duno What will happen
Just pray that everything Goes ... Well

Quite Scared actually..
Duno how she will React... Tsk..
Only pray and pray that she will be touched somehow..
Sometimes i wonder what must i do to make her fall in love with me
Isn't it the small things in life that matter the Most?
Sigh... anyway.. i just be a Guy she can always count on to be there for her
I know i sound very dramatic but that is exactly how i feel towards her

I really LOVE her...
and i really do mean it..
I dun know about other people and how they feel...towards my action
Some may think that i am foolish and some think that i am very Chi qing(Sentimental and Hopelessly in love)
but well, the thing i do come with a reason...
People have Shot question to me before...

Is she worth it? Why are you doing so much for her?
She not even responding to you... why persist? Since there wun be any meaning
Can you even see the end of the tunnel? Cause i think that you are still blinded by love.. so much that you can't find a exit

Maybe i am...
Some of the question i dun know how to answer even..

It is just a Special feeling.. like.. you know from your instincts that
She is the ONE
Love makes you do silly thing
and i dun know what i would do for her...
perhaps i was already foolish to start with

I... dun know what i want...
and well i given loads of thought over it..
Just want her to know..
I always be there for her..
Dun matter if we are together or what
but what is contridictary is that i REALLY would cherish the chance to be with her
Treasure every momet with her...
Stick by her till the very end...
i really DESIRE her...
A passion within...

After waiting for so long for her (close to 2 years)
Really Tried giving up.. not to think of her and stuff like that...
but well.. the Special feeling never went away

She is the One She is the One She is the ONE

These words just keep repeating in my mind..
Can't get her out of my mind
IF only she gives me a chance...
For me to give her Love...
i would give her LOVE till eternity

Although i may not be a perfect being...
have many weakness and such
but no one is perfect
although she may be in my Eyes
My one and ONLy perfect TEN

Looking forward to tomorrow with a little...fear..
but with lots of anticipation
I want to impress her..
Let her know...
That i still love her... from 1 years 11month before
till now and my love had never change..

People try... people fail
i TRied 3 times..
but all failed..
People give up... and some live their life in regret
I dun want mine to be lived in regret
So i just TRy and TRy again

If gal dun know.. guy DREAD rejection...
Including me..
It really hurt our EGO and our pride... when we are rejected..
but some gal just take us for granted
Dun wish her to be one
i am also a HUMAN being..
i have my feeling and Emotions as well
Think being rejected 3 times ... was an easy experience i could easily forget?
I never ONCe... forgot those times..
but well i was at fault most of the time

Rushing things and making a mess of everything
Just hoped i could erase the past
Start things anew
Just wish for a chance now...
Give me a chance to explain my feeling towards you
Give me a chance to be with you and love you with all my heart and soul
Give me a chance to guide you back to God
just give me a chance!!!!

Man.. i sound so desperate...
but the fact is.. i am...
Just feel lonely.. sometimes...
people come , people go
but all i hope is for you to stay
Someone to endure Life's Tests and trials with
Someone to LOVE and Hold
Dun want to feel lonely anymore..
When i turn.. there is no one to turn to
sigh....
I really Need you cause i Do i Do...
NO extra reason except for one..
Cause you are Special
and i LOVE you for who you are

It takes 3 seconds to fall in love
and 3 decades to get along
Guess now...
All i hope is for the 3 decades to come along
Cause i still be there for you
..Then .. Now... till eternity

WO ai NI!!!!!

Ok.. all talk no action is CRAP!!!!
Brought a bouquet of Roses for her..
$45 .. damn freaking Cheap
quite a good bargin =p
A Xmas card
$99 swatch watch
Hope She really likes it cause i spent 3 weeks looking for it
Maybe taking her out for dinner =x
haha...
Almost $200 Gone...

i can't wait for her expression when she get the Flowers
and i can't wait... for her to open the present and fall in love with the watch
Can't wait for her to say Yes in giving me a chance

If there was a day to turn up the Heat and perform
Tomorrow would be the DAY
Dun want any regret in my Life...
Already told myself...
i really lack of LOVE...
If she is still not touched...
then.. there is nothing i can do ...
nothing else other then protecting her and praying for her
but i still always be there for her
then ... i may know that.. maybe we weren't even meant to be in the first place
But i would be DAMN sad...
Dun wish this to be the ending..
but my intuition tells me so..

Just praying now..
that GOD will make this possible..
cause all things is possible through GOD
Let me be the one you use to bring her back to your side to do greater thing for you

*TODAY*
Today was quite Fun...
had class as usual.... morning LAb then Lecture
Very sleepy and didn't pay much attention(duno where all my energy gone to)
then LUNCH time...
Went out with grace, estelle , wei shan and Hui ni to the coffeeshop oppsite my church (Lighthouse evanglism) to have lunch
Too bad they didn't have a chance to try the Yu bian mi fen
Damn Tasty and NICE lo!!!!

But hey!!! There is always next time
After lunch, brought bubble tea from A1 Penang Cendol stall quite close to sch
haha.. i tried their ORea SHAKE... and it TASTED damn SHIOK
Really Delicious!!!
Can feel the Orea melt in your mouth... simply mouth-watering
Savouring the taste... biting the small bits of Oreas and Pearl...
I WANT one NOW!!!!!

Anyway.. walked back to Temasek poly
then back to IT concourse...
Help tend the booth... and chill wif my other friends...
Benjamin , Glenn , Aixuan , Soon Xiong , Jun hao , Jun ming , Alvin Neo.. just to mention a Few...
haha.. Quite FUn lo...
i love my friends
They ROCK my world

Went for lesson from 1-4pm... had lecture and LAb AGAIN!!!
but hey.. the LAB was FUN!!!!
Finish it by 4:40pm cause waiting for my friend.. Kelvin
Actually planned to go Orchard to .. meet up with the guy for another swatch watch i getting for my close friend
In the End... i didn't go...

Instead.. saw linglng .. haha she doing the TP pagent Hunt.. must SCOUT people
Hang around with her a while...
Was debating over weather to meet the person a not..cause the swatch has some hairline scratches >.< but is DAmn freaking CHEAP!!!!
Sigh..
Nonetheless.. everything was planned by GOD
Went up with lingling to the Student union(POOL $1 per GAME =p yippie!!!)
Took my G/L interview
(Hopefully i pass)

Meet new friends...
tat(HTM) , pm(HTM) , wenqi(BIT) and Aiyah.. i am BAD with names..
Got 2 more =)
anyway...
Hang out wif them at the Sub-comm area where i was interviewed...
THEn "leng" shi ta men with my LAME jokes
COLDer and COLDER.. they COULD ski =)
After that.. had 3 games of pool with Tat and LOSt 2 rounds to HIm
His pool is GOOD but i damn RUSty... never touch so long.. made so many mistakes
Sigh...
Watch Tv wif Pam and lingling and melvin
Talk wif Claudia for a while

Left the Student union around 8+pm
then Chatted on the BUs
(Tat , Pam , wenqi , lingling and Me)
LAUGHED and .. haha.. CRACK racist JOKe... =p
and there were INDIAN on the BUS lo >.<
haha
OKOk.. nothing happen to us
So after that , we alighted and proceed to shop with lingling cause she buying xmas present for friends...
lingling and us went into samuel & kelvin to look for her pants
but after trying.. decided to give it a miss
meanwhile... This guy was giving free starbucks sample
Damn NICe i tell you the Carmamel THING... sigh.. i am really BAD with name
then... tried and.. haha.. after that... headed to shop for more lingling present
Chatted with wenqi and Pamela more
So so.. after that , went to have our dinner at LONg John Silvers

Nice meal... but the service... BAD
sigh.. cannot change to fish Warp?
The gal heard my order wrongly lo..
HAiz.. if mac i get my Order Changed already
But what the FISH..
just ATE and didn't complain

Saw Han wei.. wif his SCANELicious Female "Colleague"
haha... bei FA xian le lo!!!!
So.. we just kept staring at his table
ahahaha... Damn stress lo...han wei...
hahha Dun jia jia.. jie shi ju shi ying shi...

THey left after dinner...So did wenqi and pamela
So left me , Tat and lingling
cause lingling went to buy chocolates and Candy to make goody bags for her friend i think so she order her food after all of us finish ours..
So jus wait for her to finish
then turns out the Manager there used to be her colleague when they were working in Mac last time
(What a small world HUh?)
Had a Talk with her.. them thinking about the good old days
and i just listen to them talk..
cause i dun have any FASTFOOD experience =(

Talk and TALk..

Taking a check back in reality...
11:35pm already
So.. bid our farewells
then me , lingling and tat went to wait for bus home..
In the end, i left lingling and tat behind to wait for the bus cause i was like DAMN late
(parents call me times and again asking my whereabouts)

Went home... Begged my Mum to cut my hair and

Voliaaaaaaaa LA
NEw hairSTYLE
So late now..
Have to go catch my beauty sleep =)
I am SO eager for 2morrow to start
Meeting her in the afternoon
GOD.. just one last prayer...
That my promises to her will be true and you be the judge

Update you guys on what happen tomorrow =p
Ciao peeps