Sunday, December 26, 2004



Finish Work at Around 7+pm..
junxiong went back to get $$
then i Shopped arund wif cindy for a while at cineleisure
(Play arcade also)
Play some arcade as she shopped alone
then after that her parents came to fetch her home...
Sigh.. how i envy people with parents like that...
i dun mind spending xmas with the ones i loved

So i just walked around a little while..
cause expecting to meet up wif beverly to pass her present and stuffs
So ended up walking around town

It was like a WAR zone
They SPRayed like there was No tomorrow
So.. wanting to escape the "Snow"
i hid at the windows panel seats of california fitness
Started Drawing the Xmas scene
Sketch Cineleisure which look like SUPER packed with loads of people
cause everyone was flooding the mall.. since the Taka Path was already Congested like MAD
Everyone started partying and the yearly festivities began
"Snow" was aim at any body and at any PArt >.<
Saw a few people... was Sprayed till the hair became White and worst of all.. their Hair is Ruined...Thanks God i just Cut mine... Comb it and it is gone =)
Cause my hair was freaking short

Wanting a taste of the Xmas Feel in Orchard.. i set out on my way to the war zone
haha... >.>
Wooo.. super congested and PACKED with people..
People squeezing and Well... saw some Indian molest gal admist the "Hu luan"(Chaos)
and those Same Forking indian kept pushing
I Elbowed one for Forcing himself on me..
Stupid FAg
He push me till i was on the verge of falling
i turn and elbowed him and shouted "Stop pushing la"
He just stared at me... and stop his atrocious behaviour

A gal nearly Fell in front of me...
and i step forward to "Save" her
Accidently brush across her breast...
oops..
but it was because she was falling flat from all the pusing and shovering
I know she understand it was unintentional..
Then walk walk more...

More things i saw..
people spray "Snow" on the Statues of Jesus..story(christian...TENT which showed Christ birth)
Gal.. who didn't care about their... Assets anymore.. just Shove and clear the way with their... boobs
It was Quite a Scene i tell you
Then all the empty spray Can on the Floor...
Felt like i was going to fall anytimes...outside TAKA...
where Cans were all over the Place

Picked up a Wallet... which was a Gal's wallet
Actually thought that maybe she just dropped it
but found later that it had been pick-pocketed...
Inside was all malaysian CArds... which meant the Lady was an Malaysian...
planning to ask my aunty to return it to that poor lady
Cause my aunt leaving for malaysia soon...
Can entrust to her to call the bank and from there.. return back the wallet

Walked all the way from Cineleisure to LIDO to find Junxiong cause he called to tell me he was with his friend
Called Beverly soon after and found out she was headed to her friend's house and not meeting us cause she say "i old liao la... This type of Fun.. cannot take it le"
haha... sigh.. what matter is in the heart la

I was Caught in the WAR zone.. for forty minutes..
By the time i reach there...
i was .. Covered in SNOW...
luckily Not FUlly.. saw some gal Sprayed all over
then people SABO their friend together..
Some ass ... Throw the Empty cans into the air...
i guess it hit some people.. but well... hope everything all right

As i walked to LIDO.. wipe off the "snow" and the Sticky mess that i was in..
People spray some Sticky and LONg substance on me...
crap..
My sister messaged me to tell me look for her..
cause she was at the Mac-Cafe next to LIDO..
then End up didn't go cause.. i wanted to countdown at TAKA there..

So walk toward there...
Met up with junxiong and his friends..
Turned up they were heading home...
cause they scare no transport home...11:45pm already what...

So walked Back to TAka hoping to catch the Countdown
Wanted to cross the street but guess who i saw..
YEa.. you guessed IT...
Xiaoxuan...
and she was with another guy...
in her group of girlfriends....
WHY WHY..
WHy another guy can Tag along but just not me...
why can't she just tell me...
Not like i would do anything...At least dun cheat me.. i hate people to do that
i think everyone dun wish people to cheat them

At first i was actually supposed to meet my friend go clubbing
then i told her that i could tag along for a while cause meeting my friend later..
she msged me back "why are u coming along?"
then said that "It is all girls anyway"
maybe to her would be Awkward ba...
Cause.. Think her friends can tell my action i am wooing her
and since it is all girls.. figure i was being EXTRA...
but when i saw the guy...
was Damn Angry...
cause she was cheating me...
just to make sure i never see the other guy...

After the FUn i had just Yesterday wif her , wei ling , jac ...
couldn't imagine....
sigh... gal... who can fathom how they feel?
i duno if she was touched or anything
but all i did was for her... sigh... Really really love her..
Words cannot describe my feeling

i Was GOD damn FREAKING ANGRY... and SAD
Disappointment Sinked in..
my intuition were correct..
Everything would end up in disappointment

Went to a corner to be alone..
then .. type a sms to her... while crying

here goes...
=======================================================
Saw u
green tee & skirt
then holo above your head
cute la
but accidently saw another guy
sigh...
No worries
Seeing is believing ba
good guy dun win in e end
now i know
dun worry la
actualli learn a lot
sacrifices r 4 nothing
perserverance means zilch
what my friend say is true ba
that you're not the one for me
often listen to that song
sing it
hymn it
it even play itself at bizpark when i gave you roses
you really mean something to me
but i dun mean anything to you
crying while i am writing this
white rose mean you're special
red rose mean i love you
12 stalk mean be my stead
2002 swatch watch meant the year i met you
all e small thing that doesn't matter to you
Christmas supposed to be happy
and i am drowning myself in sorrows
It would be the most memorable one in my life
& dun worry i will move on wif life
guess some thing are just not meant to be
some people not worth it
already tried my best
try getting closer
but i couldn't
try distancing myself
but i was just deceiving myself
i really love you
but i was never given a chance
try loving some1 this way
experience what it feels like..
I never 4get about you
cause you r e only gal that i ever waited so long for
Merry Xmas
may all your wishes come true
for i know mine never will
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*END*

She never replied

i dun blame her..
i wun even know how to reply...either..
Just so sad over how thing turned out
It was one-sided love from the start
but.. i really love her.. from the bottom of my heart
I felt so Lost....

My friend didn't call me .. to go clubbing.. cause ... i guess he headed to Mud sultan or somewhere else wif other friends..
then jia en was wif all gal... i also very pia seh to go..
sigh... no plan... and with the harsh reality in front of me..
just continue walking
walking on the street of orchard like a LOSt soul

Saw Alvin and lijun's bf (forget his name)
then.. ..walked with them..
turned out that they were going to far east shopping centre to play pool
so i just tag along..
was still feeling very ...Messed up inside..
but i continue to put up a front... act like i was not affected...
sigh.. if only they knew..

They being BLUR... and the blind leading the blind lead me to walk the oppsite direction and we spent like so long trying to find the shopping centre
Walked to the MechMaster there but turns up that it was closing in about 20min (1:34Am then) and we still had to wait for a table..
sigh...
When all hopes seemed to be dashed ...
Saw my friends on the way to the toilet
Aloysius , woo Heng , their friend Priscilla
and asked them for direction

Finally FOUND our way... there..
and play pool for 3h+ all the way till 6am
Then.. went to have Mac and took Bus home..
Me , Alvin and lijun's bf
sigh... it would have been a fun and enjoyable day.. if only... sigh.. if only
i still had fun but emotionally i am in a mess
just dun want to think about it
sleep through it