Dun even wann talk about it in the first place. In short i had a very bad day Went for the PAGES and was late Screwed up the finale cause i was playing wif my HP and 4got about my Spotlight (doing Follow Spot ) No lunch then at met melissa after my Show at 4.30pm Turned down my Brother, Alvin nEo just cause of her.

 
Cause she invited me and her bunch of friends to watch the huang yi da perform at her school or somewhere near it. So actually wanted to go home for a bathe & refresh myself a little but well, seeing her was enough reason not to. Mel was with Hinie and Meanie (Those 2 were watching CD-PRO2 Bo ko leng). When i saw her, she seemed troubled and that her mind was elsewhere. Soon after Daniel aka Da niu came along. Haha nice dude currently doing his Attachment in HDB housing development.Found out that he was going for barbeque near the tennis court. So melissa and me decided to go as well. She even decided to skip the huang yi da thingy( Bet a lot of her friend be Mad at her >.<>

 Anyway,it was a rather nice nice bbq but just that did't mingle 2 well with everyone cause really felt out-of-place. Howver, the food was GREAT and BBQ to Perfection. Susage was fed to me by Melissa (Yeah gal i do feel Xin fu =) but very hot when BBQ cause wearing black as usual)Helped out a bit with the bbq of the food and Had some myself.
Mel so ... haiz ..... dun say le.... eat daniel satay dun eat mine =( But i fed her a lot =x (nuggets, small piece of the well marinated chicken,beef etc)
But could tell she didn't really enjoy herself. Properly cause of her friends she left behind for the bbq(dun jia jia say nothing nothing) or was it for the some1 she said was drifting away from? Anyway,at 1 point of time, just felt very sianz so ask her if wann go and see the KTV competition located very near us. Just wanted it to be the 2 of us cause got something tell her. In the end, it became a group thingy.

Climb up the wall then Mel the adventerous one also wanted to climb up. Told her i come down and walk her up but NO she would not give up. Daniel help her up and luckily she manage to conquer the wall. This gal sure had a will and determined as well. Went over to listen to the K ge competition and found it rather fun as most competitor were from china. The show i was actually going to do but from above, rejected it.

 
Anyway,saw my brother, Alvin again then whhahah he seeing long kang(drain) from e top(oops i blurted it out). Came over to say Hi to Mel but guess she wasn't overly impressed by him(he YAn dao lol so many gal want him).Ask alvin for the form for melissa to join production crew. Then saw another side of Mel i didn't saw before. So VIOLENT sia.Keep "Sparring" with daniel. To me i like girl wif Attitude and not Attitude problem so i could handle that but wa lao...dun be so childish la. I hate fights cause of my past.

Began to think back to my secondary days when so many things happened... Recalled my ex, duno how she doing now. Really regret introducing her to my "FRIEND" at that time.

To me i still remorseful as i had a negative impact on her life and change the once innocent,sweet and guai her into a big time japster aka kim mo lian aka cao a lian aka BITCH who chap in some LJ gang called kutong wasting her life away. How i wish i could slap her back into reality or turn the clock back to reverse the change in her. Still remember all the silly fights i got myself into just cause of her.
Living up is surely part and parcel of life and by maturing we learn a lot of thing. Violence dun solve anything, it just aggrevates the problem. Unless u kill some1 to end it all, the other person would still have a chance to get back at you and vice versa. u whack a person, be prepared to be whacked back in number. IT's just like boomerang, it just go back to you.
Peace or call the police or use my Line "THink before u HIT me cause i SUE U for it" If he does, then get prepared for some "SELF-Defence".
JUdge : The accused is convicted of all charges and send to 3 month imprisonment for assult.
Judge :  He is to serve his sentance immediately.
Jugde : Out of self-defence, the victim Flannery has broke the arm, leg and discollated a back bone of the accused but seeing that it was for protecting himself, i pronouce him no-guilty of inflicating injury to the accused. =)
SCREW me and be prepared to get SCREWED

 Back to my day, Mel felt tired and wanted to go home, so anyway, it was no early anymore. Packed some Sausages for my producion crew friends and went back with daniel and Mel. Melissa wented polar bear to piggyback her. And the bear did as follow(GREEN wif ENVY) At that point of time, thought to myself , haiz we still friends now and i get jealous. Maybe cause i possive type of person although i give freedom to my partner. Actually i dwelling 2 much into it ba.... we are still friends and getting 2 know each other only(Am i being over-sensetive? Rushing things a little , 2 lonely? thinking 2 much? feeling insecure? feeling desolated? Sad? Siao? Crazy?) But i do feel attracted to her (silly old her) maybe due to the sense that we click really well.

But in my heart i still think of XX. Why should i even bother? Haiz, i ask that question to myself a lot of time already. i really need time to think and ponder over what i should do now.Maybe after my Term test
Tomorrow is SUNDAY , really wann take the time and surrender my all to him. MAy he guide me through this period in my life